Such an awful thing to make somebody think.....

Just a few things to note at the moment.

1. I passed my training which means I still have a job. 
2. I am so tired.
3. I can't sleep properly. 

The last two weeks have been awesome, I swear of all the jobs I have had this is the one I enjoy the most. (of the official jobs, not the self-employed/freelancer ones) I get to play with gadgets all day. I get to talk to people and learn stuff, ALL DAY. I get to work with a bunch of people that are actually lovely and full of life. I remember times where I have just wanted to walk into a gadget shop and play with all the funky things they have to offer, I have always been a bit too shy to do that though. 

Now I work in a place full of gadgets and bits and bobs that are absolutely super cool. I have learnt more about laptops and pc's and cables in the last two days than I have in an entire lifetime of living with geeks. I actually like going to work and leaving absolutely shattered and ready to drop into bed straight away. I left work on Wednesday without that satisfactory ache, my feet felt fine, it felt strange, Wednesday was too quiet. I wasn't bouncing all over the place, yaking and helping, cleaning and 'facing-up' and doing all the little busy body things that I find myself doing on a busy day. I wasn't very happy, but I think I enjoyed it none the less.

Gumpy, tired Moo. 

Now with all my working and aching and being busy I have honestly been absolutely tired, worn-out and dead on my feet by the time I get home. I still can't sleep when I get into bed after a long day. I lay there and toss and turn and I loath the staring at the ceiling spiel. I finally fall asleep and then I am awake within the hour. and every two or three hours there after. I wonder if there is any cure for this? 

I wonder how my brain could be so busy, constantly.... You know it is around one or two am before I just stop checking the time... How can I sleep? I just want to sleep.... Like now I feel damn tired, the minute I get into bed I won't be able to sleep, I bet you...

I have work tomorrow at ten, I'll be awake by about four am, then five am and then six am and I will probably just get out of bed at seven when I finally tire of playing the nap game with my body, when my brain refuses to shut up. :/ I look forward to a damn busy day tomorrow so I can sleep well on Saturday night. 

Hmm I would like to crawl into bed and sleeep until tomorrow without waking up once during the night and early morning.

I think I want nicotine first. 

xxxxxx

F