I have been pestering myself and being an utter ninny.

I think I am being an utter ninny with myself. 

For a while now I have battled with this inner kind of war zone. I have been super confused with who I am and who I identify as. I have been eaten up from the inside with regards to who I am. I often would sit there and look at things I thought I liked and realize I actually don't like them. 

I had this feeling, I have had it for as long as I can remember, I don't remember a time not feeling it. I am so enthralled with it, this feeling, of passion and pure decadence. 

There is no other way of putting it, so I will be blunt, I think I am gay.

I have sat and evaluated this carefully. I have come to the following conclusions:

• I do not find myself sexually attracted to men.     
• I am sexually attracted to women.
• I feel more comfortable with the thought of being with one.
• I feel right about this.
• I am happier kissing women than men. 
• While I might find some men attractive, it does not mean that they are my type.
• I like women, a lot. 

Maybe all of this doesn't make me gay, maybe it makes me confused or hormonal, whatever the case maybe I am happy with being me. I am happy being gay, confused, straight, bent, curved, zig-zaged, whatever else a person can be, I am just happy to be me. For now though I am sure that I am gay, for those of you who don't understand it when the term gay is applied to women, Lesbian is another way of putting it.        

I don't know, Am I gay?