Dreams of the future...

I don't think I have ever emailed so many people in my entire life as I have today, It is fun though. 

This is my facial expression when looking at flats to rent, and all of the weird real estate jargon is thrown if for good measure and I understand nothing of it. 

WTF does all of this mean?!?!

Oh dear. It will all be good. I feel good about this, better about it than I have felt about a lot of things lately. 

I think I have just been so caught up in the "what-if" part of it all that I started to despair, I got so caught up in trying to figure it all out in my head at once that I lost focus and stopped trying because it became a little to hard for me to even concentrate on anything properly. I am taking it step by step now. Organizing my thoughts, feelings and needs mentally, prioritizing. 

I feel more positive that this is what I want to do, this is what I can do, and what I am good at. I enjoy sticking needles in people and putting bits of metal in their skin and making them look friggin' fantastic. That is what I am good at! It is what I love. When I was small there were few things that stood out to me career wise, piercing, tattooing, the army, F1 driver, biker (and some other things that are not important as I cannot remember them) I am finally pursuing my ideal job of becoming a piercer. 

I will do it. I will. I can and I am doing it!