Being blind....

It is amazing how blind people are... most people are blind, not so much physically..
I mean just look at the people that latch on to others because of the compliments and kind remarks...
Think about it, if some one says 'you are absolutely beautiful' are you going to then just ignore them? No, your face will light up and you are more likely to speak to them aren't you, more likely to trust them, more likely to think of them as friends.

We have this insatiable need to be comforted, loved, admired, and lavished with attention. We all do, even the most meek and mild of people to bask in compliments when bestowed on them. Sometimes these compliments are just that and make our cheeks tingle rosy red with shyness, but sometimes just sometimes we become absorbed in the words, we fall in love with those words and we don't realize that the person uttering them is actually just leeching off of the attention that you are then giving them in return.

They are just feeding on your dependency, the dependency you have developed for the words of falsified joy and excitement at your presence. There is just no way of explaining my irritation with the fact that I let people suck me into their poisonous little caverns of false compliments and attention, I realize only to late that these people just want me for something or another or because I have something that they want but cannot have, it is a double ended sword. I think I feel like becoming more cold and self involved than ever before. I at least will then know that I am not going to get sucked into other peoples compliments and words.

It is the words that attract me, it is the voice that hooks me, that manipulation of some ones intonation, the pace and spacing of the words. I get sucked into the way people roll the words off their tongues. I am tired of it, bored in fact.

Anyway, moral of the story, don't trust everything that everyone says, if someone says you are beautiful, take it and thank them and leave them be, if they constantly say it or push it out there, ignore it. Simple. it saves you the racing mind and constant thinking. It is just plain confusing anyway...